Man this pregnancy is just flying by. Where the fuck has it gone!?

Month 4 (weeks 14-17)

This has literally been just me packing my house getting ready to move to Illinois. I don’t know about you, but I DO NOT recommend packing an entire house, loading boxes into the moving storage unit (we used the POD’s system), and then moving cross country while you’re pregnant, with a 5 year old, by YOURSELF.

I randomly threw up just after turning 17 weeks and do not miss that. Killian ran out of the house into the backyard and only came back in when I was done 😂 Thanks for the support kid. Nausea is still here and I’m still relying on my Unisom/B6 combo to get through the day. I get extra nauseous if I’m hungry so I have to keep food in my stomach otherwise I’m down for the count. It’s making me a little nervous about weight gain since I was considered “morbidly obese” at the start of this pregnancy, but I have to keep reminding myself that I’m growing a baby and listening to my body’s needs. I WILL NOT deny something my body is telling me it needs (and it’s been mainly veggies and salads).

I also HAD to call on my community and friends at 17 weeks because I was struggling. I felt I was barely keeping my head above water and I desperately needed help and boy did they answer. I felt so loved and supported by my people and am so utterly grateful for their help. I could not have done it without them. And of course, it just made moving away that much more painful.

month 5 (weeks 18-22)

We officially moved out of my home state of CA when I was 21+1 weeks pregnant. I don’t know what to say other that it was ABSOLUTE CHAOS.

Seriously, this move cost almost double what we were expecting. We had to get rid of 90% of our things. My laptop broke the week before we left CA, Killian got sick a week before we left also, and then I ended up catching whatever he had two days before we left (I literally threw up during the final walk through of our rental 😂🤦🏼‍♀️). AND because I was sick, I couldn’t help my sister with fuck all. Literally the morning that we left, I was throwing up and passed out standing next to the kitchen sink at our airbnb, and then proceeded to continue throwing up once I was on the ground (y’all it was fucking rough).

My sister essentially drove us cross country, and because I thrive in chaos, I picked up two Rottweiler puppies on my way out of CA (who were actually pretty fucking easy the entire drive out, my old lady Lola was the problem child 😂).

BUT we did safely pull into our driveway 4 days after we left CA. It was beautiful pulling up to our new house and finally reuniting with Sam after 2+ months away from each other.

month 6 (weeks 23-27)

Sam AND Killian both felt baby kick from the outside for the first time at exactly 23 weeks. Weeks 23 through 25 were literally just filled with anxiety and panic attacks as my nervous system was trying to reset itself and calm down since I wasn’t hyper focusing or stressing out about a move timeline and packing our lives. It was a real struggle just being still.

I had my first midwife appointment and myself and baby are super healthy! I also had my anatomy scan (albeit late since I had to cancel my appointment in California since Killian was sick and I had no one to watch him) baby is measuring a bit ahead (like Killian did) and is perfectly formed and healthy 🥰

I have really been trying to enjoy this pregnancy as much as possible since I don’t have HG and have been functional. This little one has really stripped a bunch of layers away from me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, and I couldn’t be more grateful. I’ve had to work through some tough shit and I know my work isn’t done.

Third trimester symptoms (like exhaustion and shitty sleep) have been creeping in this last week, so I’m really hoping it doesn’t get any worse. My belly button is disappearing and I’m super sad about that 😂

BUT I’m so fucking excited to experience labor and birth again. So far I’m completely at peace with however our story unfolds. I have an amazing birth team surrounding me, I’m educated, know all of my options, and trust this process deeply. It’s been nice being in my own little bubble, and I can’t wait to meet this little one when they decide to join us earth side 💕